transition begins.....now.

so this is it. my fire poi is here and im getting a few new moves down to dress up my art a little more. i need to do many things if i want to start performing. i wish i had a big room with mirrors i could watch myself dance in. so, things i need?
1. a stage name
2. a routine
3. a costume
4. 15-20 minutes of music.
 A. shpongle: nothing is something worth doing.
 B. BT feat. Jes: light in things
 C. ????

1. a stage name,
 Fire fox, glitter fox, foxy flame, 
2. a routine
 once i pick the final song, i need to start from the beginning with a note book and start with the first move, write it down go into the second and write it down. and just practice doing it over and over again.
3. a costume
 do i want to go bold or do i want to be mysterious? do i want to be light or dark? sexy or fun? is there a way i can come up with a little bit of everything?
 fire proof.
 mask, gloves, leg flairs, skirt, top.
 colors: purple pink, black or nude
4. music:
 this is hard for me to pick. do i want it to be high paced or down tempo? i feel like i will be playing to a lot of older crowds. so i think down tempo is a better call. shpongle is great for poi. i just tried to take a minute to listen to some more music and its so hard to find the right one!!!

Fire Poi

so the order is in. i ordered the fire poi on oct. 3rd from Home of Poi. in new zealand. and its expected to be here by oct. 18th! im so super excited. my land lord has been helping out a lot with lots of  different advice for me.about 2 weeks ago he brought up a 20 min. gig to me to see if i was interested.of coarse i was. but after about 4 or 5 days i realized i didnt have poi down enough for my satisfactoy. i feel like i if im trying to impress people with only 2 weeks of actual fire practice i feel like im going to get burned. i know what happens when i get music i like on at the same time a camera is on me. i screw up big time. but if i knew i was going to get them right now as i was posting this. i would hve prob. said yes.!!! but my land lord, boris, came by yesterday and gave me a little pep talk. so as soon as i can im going to get down to jo ann fabrics and pick out some fabric for my costume. then im going to practice with them all the time. and get a routine down. i think over a 5 week period of stretching and a routine practice i will be in good enough condition to put on a show that i can be proud of.

poi

http://youtu.be/9hrcZLqvs4Q

ive been getting into poi lately. i love it so much its so similar to glow sticks its very easy for me to pick up. my land lord offered to bring his poi home so i could try it out. so for practice i took some old thigh highs and tennis balls and ive been going to town! its improving all the time even though im not learning any more moves im just learning how to move around and let the balls spin them selfs around me as i turn. i think with enough play your body naturally wants to move in different and challenging ways because now my moves are a lot more fluid and abstract then 2 weeks ago when i picked them up. i dont necessarily know what move i plan to do next but i feel my wrist becoming more flexable and sure spun and it whips around me. i do notice that some moves require a certain hand over the other but if i think about it too much is when i mess up. its suck a natural feeling for me im so happy i got inspired again to try this type of dance art out again and now that im older i feel like i might be able to make something out of this. even if its just free vip tickets to shows!

hula hooping is amazing!

http://youtu.be/u7CEAl2hjBY

jam

im running into a jam. i dont feel like im getting all that i can out of life right now and i think its time to step it up a notch before i get tooo old.

too much.

im totally cluttered with all this stuff right now. i wasent feeling stress before. but i think my hormones are going full speed right now with the new birth control ive been taking. they told me there would be changes and i think im feeling them now. i can usually brush everything thing to the side so i dont feel stress. and its hard to tell if im pissed because everything is really as bad as im making it or if its only this bad right now because of pms. so here are the details, my car is breaking down, ryan thinks its a good idea to lease a new one and im not sure. it sounds good but it will be in my name and if anything happens to it i have to pay. i know as soon as the first coffee spills in the car or blunt ashes get everywhere is going to make me sound like ryans mother. (not my own cuz she doesnt give a fuck about anything) anyway, i just know the car is going to get fucked up. nothing we have ever owned stayed nice for long. and its going to be me that has to pay for it. i just dont want to be a nagging bitch about a piece of metal that will get me to and from work. and way more expencive then just taking the bus. now i can understand i want a car for shows and festivals and to see my family. but that means i want the car for 3 sep. occations for the year. when i can just take a bus or now a zip car. ok and then im pissed because im not getting any hours at the lone wolf or at the black sheep. im getting 30 between the 2 and before i was doing like 50 sooo.. i know its slow but i think andrew and dan both have this weird relatonship with me, where i feel they like me bc if they dont it will be a mess at work. but thats not even it thats petty shit compared to the fact that black sheep cant even cash my checks anymore.we have to wait to get busy so we can take it from the drawers. if too many ppl come i nthe same day you have to wait bc  there will be no money in the register. how fucked up is that! my boss cant afford to pay me!!! yay! so i have to find a new job, and like i said it doesnt seem like im going to get any more hours at lone wolf. i just cant get it down 100% for some reason. although i do believe that if i worked full time instead of 2 5 hours shifts a week i will get it down in no time.and i dont have a good education compared to these college kids and now im almost 30 and i cant get a fucken new job. but these 19 year old school kids can. ugghhhhh! then the last thing im going to complain about is our apartment. i pay 875 from nov.-march, i think. for heat... i can have my heater turned all the way up with the bathroom heater on and a electric heater and it will be 60 degrees in my house... R U KIDDING????? !!!! if i want it to be warm i have to put on 3 layers turn on the oven plug in the heater and shut the door to the side room. sounds like it waste a lot  of power to heat 1 fucken room!!@!!!!! and this guys got all the power on the same fuse so when the upstairs neighbors are home we blow a fuse ever hour even with just a fan on downstairs in our apartment.wtf im trying to sleep and she turns the light on upstairs and all my power blows out. and bc the fuse box is in our apartment for the upstairs too we have to reset it. which is good for us cuz at least we can.